how time flies!
     what have i been doing? college, which consumes most of my time. housesitting for an old man with four cats while he works in camp. hanging out with a crazy new friend lady, chain smoking, eating lots, trying to be merry while our worlds kind of crash down around us. lots of hot chocolate has been consumed.
     my final exams for my first semseter are this week! i've been dogging it, not really studying, it's hard to get my mind in that state. physics, chemistry, english, biology. so much science. it's mind boggling.
     i talk to the cats a lot. they're lovely little beings. i finished my friend's painting finally, i'm not good at doing things in a timely manner.
     i still like to sleep. i wish i could sleep more. winter is a time for sleeping, not stressing, i believe.
i think i am going to go sleep.

right. i'm set to start school in T minus 5 days. not gonna lie, i'm scared shitless. i think that my brain's deteriorated so much since high school that i'm just going to implode the second i walk into calculus. barf. oh well, i'm just gonna give'er so hard, not even have a social life, until i master this shizz and walk outta there with a  5.5 GPA and march my ass down to Vic for the big time show. ugh.
being so grown up kind of disgusts me.
i don't like it. it's scary. no more breaks, no exceptions, you're tried as an adult because YOU ARE AN ADULT. with bills to pay and responsibilities and jobs and relationships and cars and lifes and GROSS
nope. can i just call in sick to life?

sometimes

when i'm driving late at night and i get that lofty, dissociated feeling i drive down the hill by my house with no brakes and it feels like a roller coaster and i feel alive for just a moment when that sharpness hits my stomach

brainzz

sometimes i get really bad migraines.

my head just screams and i'm sore and tired and everything makes me want to cry.

like how i had to stay late at work because the till was off and then i didn't get to go on a hike and someone wants me to go out but i am broke and have to work in the morning and my boyfriend broke the cell phone i bought him two days ago and i can't get a hold of him and there's nothing in the fridge except for old hummus and some wrinkly mushrooms and a lot of condiments and pepperoni but i don't eat meat and i tell my mom there's nothing to eat and she says "oh but there's plenty" so i hide in my room with a pudding and a half can of pringles for my dinner and now my mom's on the phone complaining loudly about insignificant things and i want to shake her and tell her to open her eyes but she would never listen and

suddenly this seems to be about a bit more than a headache.

remember when i blogged

i think the problem here is that i was trying to run a serious blog and i am a very not serious person. so i'm going to try and resume writing on here, because writing is good for the soul, right? yeah. that's what i thought.

exhausted.

hi. i'm mishabelle. all i ever do is work and sleep and eat. but we're really broke so i eat a lot of kd. i'm on tumblr now a lot more. one day i'll actually accumulate enough interesting stuff to make a whole post about. ♥

by the way, here's some highlights of my trip to china.

i made a friend in the people's liberation army.

i got to see panda bears have lunch.

i saw so many historic structures i could puke.

i made a friend with ronaldo, the cruise ship's bartender.

i considered getting ice crem.

i pet a cat in a buddhist temple.

i got to explore snowy jade cave.

i got harassed by red butt monkeys!

i'm lazy

and still slightly overwhelmed from china so i shalln't be posting about it yet.
in other news, i like this song. the music video makes me smile because it looks like everyone's having fun.




kid cudi is super cute anyways.

walking

    My favorite place to go for a stroll is an abandoned road right near my house.

      It's very peaceful. In some parts, nature's almost taken over the road, filling the cracks with mosses and grasses. Other parts have been graffiti'd. I read something new almost every time.

      Today was very quiet. When the wind travelled through the trees, the sounds of dead leaves crashing down sounded like waves on the ocean. A raven flew above my head and I could hear the swooshing of its wings in the air. The sun was warm, and it was lovely.

halloween

     Guys, I have no idea what I'm going to be this year. This is odd, because usually I've got my costume figured out by November 2nd of the previous year. I'm hoping I will find something in China, but I'm not too sure I will... do they even celebrate Halloween over there? I have no idea.

                                                   Mens vs. Ladies... hmm.
     So, every so often I take a peek online and see what the costume websites have come up with. Let me say, the woman's costume section is ridiculous! Sexy tin man, sexy Brian from family guy, sexy flasher? Really? And a quick peak over to the men's section reveals a multitude of superheroes, movie characters, pirates, and villains- none of which are labeled "sexy". How unfair is that? Just because I am a lady, does not mean I should be expected to dress up as a super skank at every opportunity I get. Now, there's absolutely nothing wrong with showing some skin! But when the media pushes that as the "norm" - girls should be sexy, guys should be scary? Fuck that. Dress up how you want, be it ghost, ghoul, or school girl. And whatever you do, have fun!

what do i paint?

umm, musicians and trailers, pretty much. hahha.

imagine.

five years gone.
a torrent of memories exploding across your synapses.
a rhythmic drumming of two hearts near.
is this the end?
a ruby sunrise blazes, rips apart the desert.
babe, i wish you were here.

photo:

freefallin'

Check out the youtube page for a free download of this track. I fakin' adore it.
If you can, go see them in concert. I would kill to, but flying to Spokane is sort of unrealistic. Poo.

shoutout

     First off, this girl is super badass. And, she's totally facking adorable. And we're going to get married and listen to awful music and eat cupcakes and it's going to be SUPER. Now who is this awesome little lady I'm talking about?

    She goes by Cellar Dorre! But she's not all just looks, you know. This cutie is also super talented! She creates zines, bakes tasty vegan things, and makes adorable comics. 

      Aweee! Isn't that so cute? If you agree, then you should probably go check out her website. It's totally rad, just like her!

http://cellardorre.webs.com/

how 'bout them resolutions?

    All this preparation for the new school year (which, sadly, I have no part in) has gotten me thinking about those darned resolutions I made last December. Did I actually fulfill anything this year? How about you?

• To finish my college prep so I can go to university.
• To save up some money.
      I've got about a grand in the bank, but I also just spent four grand on a trip to China. Practical? Nope. Exciting? Hells yes!
• To go completely vegetarian.
     I was doing really amazing until Carrington, a once-yearly music festival/rave on my lovely island. I gave into temptation and had a really amazing hot dog and beef jerky, and on one of my recovery days, steak with mushrooms and onions. Divine and so worth it. I'm reverting back to vegetarianism, I swear!
• To focus on more positivity.
• To learn how to drive.
      I practiced about three times all summer. However, my mother and I decided that once I move back home in a couple weeks, I must practice my little butt off until I can pass my driving test. Scary, indeed.

      So, that's not too bad, I suppose. I also learned to skateboard a bit, honed my guitaring skills, made a tonne of friends, and made it through the Summer of Learning To Love Myself (All By Myself)! Okay, yeah, I am fairly proud. Watch out, Autumn, here I come! Ka-POW!

you know...

      If I go to South America and it isn't exactly like in this music video, I will be seriously, seriously disappointed.

oldschool.

    

     There is officially one place in town that still does one hour photo developing. Everywhere else I go people look at me like I'm mad when I ask about ye olde dinosaur, film. Like, seriously, not only does our brand new Wal-Mart Supercentre not develop film ("at the moment," they're out of photo paper they claim...?) but when I asked the clerk at the head of the photo department where the film was, he squinted at me and said he thought it was somewhere in the electronics department. And, lo and behold, there it was! A quaint row of film between ear buds and rechargeable batteries. Why is the film not in the photo department? Why does no-one develop film anymore? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD THESE DAYS?! Now excuse me, I'm going to go into my 1984 Citation motorhome to put a pot o' tea on my gas range and watch a VHS tape in my video cassette recorder, which is hooked up to my CRT television, thank you very much!

a wee bit of advice.

      Don't settle for anything. And absolutely never, ever change yourself for anyone. That's my new rule. I am just going to be me- and who gives a fuck if I'm a bit shy, annoying, or batshit insane? Because as long as we act as ourselves, people will either love us for it, or they can suck my left one. Now I'm going to go paint. Have a great day lovelies! xoxo

Mixtape!

     Hello, lovelies! Here's a little tuneage for you. Enjoy!

Atmosphere - Free or Dead

Bob Marley - Could You Be Loved

The Doors - Soul Kitchen

Atmosphere - Lost and Found

The Distillers -  Young Girls

K-os - Superstar, Part One

Bran Van 3000 - Drinking in LA

Golden Animals - The Steady Roller

Major Lazer - Keep it Goin' Louder (So Shifty 1961 Ska Remix)

Outkast ft. Norah Jones - Take Off Your Cool

 Pixies - I Bleed

Sweatshop Union - I Got News

Nirvana - Drain You
   
      There you go! I hope you enjoy, and if you want any of the tracks, just email me and I can send them to you. Have a great summer, my dearests! ♥ ♥ ♥

Summer Manifesto

      Hello, lovelies! Are you enjoying your summer? I sure hope so! If not, why don't you try and write some rules to live by for these glorious few months? I sure did!

• Enjoy each day as much as possible. Want to go out and do something? Then go out and do it, dammit!
• Drink lots of water. Or lemonade. Or iced teas. Try to stay away from soda and coffee, hard as it may be!
• Lose your inhibitions. Go say hi to that cute person over there. Dance your hardest. Sing. Go crazy!
• Smile! It's the single best thing you can put on your face.
• Try something new! I almost have all the protective gear I need (sans helmet) to learn how to longboard. But, I want to try lots of new things! Yoga! Knitting! Everything!
• Make some friends! It's not hard, but it's so rewarding! You may be surprised at how amazing people can be once you get to know them.
• Also, cleanse your life of those poisonous people! Delete them off Facebook, your phone, your messenger, everything! If they don't make you feel magical, you probably don't need them around.
• Cherish every moment, it'll be over faster than you think!      ♥ ♥ ♥

     Do you have any words to live by this summer?  Share, share, share! It's good for the soul, love!
ps. I am totally working on a mixtape for you! Hurrah! xoxo

Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)

Ladies and Gentlemen of the class of  '97,
Wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.